through the eyes of a child.

somedays i wish we all still thought like sweet innocent children. they know how to love and laugh. and just enjoy the moment they are in. we should try to enjoy life as they do more often.

Everyday Goals.

One thing I've learned in life is that it is not my place to judge. People have made different mistakes but accepting and loving people through them is the best that one can do. Realizing that people will love you through your faults is a good thing, and being able to love people no matter what their choices are -- is a big goal I try to achieve daily. I believe we are here on this earth to love and to show people love. This is my everyday goal.

A Year: in the blink of an eye.

It’s crazy that it has been a year. A year full of taking the next steps, figuring out how to move on, a year of new friendships, a year of finding joy in the small, everyday things.

A year ago a lot of people’s lives were changed. One boy changed hundreds, thousands of lives. And I know even though I wish it could have all happened differently it happened for a reason. For a purpose.

The friends I made last year are friends/brothers that will be apart of my life forever.

There are nights and days I will never forget. I will never forget the sweet eyes that could tell me anything. Or the way you would hold mine (or the person next to you’s) hand. Sitting there with the comfort of love just abounding in that hospital was absolutely amazing. Everyday you could feel God’s presence. He was there. In the friends, family, the people you touched that never even really got to know you. You will forever connect a family of friends together.

I couldn’t imagine where I would be without these people in my life.

"The friend who holds your hand and says the wrong thing is made of dearer stuff than the one who stays away." ~Barbara Kingsolver

Not quite ready for the real world.

Often times I come and write my thoughts on a word document, but wish that a few of my friends could read them sometimes. Read them for the advice or just knowledge of some of my thoughts. I really get big thoughts in my head when I'm driving alone and I wish that I could just tape record everything I wanted to say because it always seems better in my head than on paper. I've never been much of a writer but whenever it is about my life it gives me a certain sense of peace about everything.

I think I was pretty set on getting my masters because I honestly didn't want the stress yet of finding a job and also my first year of teaching. They say your first year is pretty much your worst and I don't really like being bad at something so that really scares me. I feel for the people around me searching for jobs, while also in relief that I am not under the same pressure.. yet. It's scary to me that next year I will be looking for a job. Will be possibly starting my first classroom.

"Students don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care." When I think about students I feel quite confident in myself. I love to love people and care about people, but what if I'm not good enough at showing them how much I do care. The only reason I want to be a teacher is so that I can show love to my students. The teachers that I look back on and I know influenced my life positively always occurred because they created a relationship with me.

Relationships. Is this what we are here for? Being in community? Working to be there for people and allowing people to love us. If this is true, why does it seem so hard sometimes?

P.S. I don't know if any boy can make me love him more than I love Lee James. I think this might be a slight problem.